Today, I’m talking about my inability to concentrate the way I used to.
Frankly I hard hardly string two thoughts together. This is partially why I haven’t posted in a little while. I think of things I’d like to say to you and then when it’s time to sit at the computer, I’ve totally lost it.
This disturbs me because I’m one of those multi-tasking mommas. I generally have many projects going at once. Like a typical momma, I’ve also got the child and household related details in my brain too – doctors appointments, my daughters camps, play dates etc. I also work full time at a hospital and generally juggle about 15 to 20 projects at once there too.
So by the time I get home, I desperately need to delete some info from my brain, otherwise there is just no room for more. I wish I could buy more RAM for my brain. I’ll check Best Buy.
Anyway… train of though got off track again… see how easy it is?
The point I finally getting to is this – this freakin perimenopause is clouding my thoughts! I find my head in the fog so often now. Is this just aging? I don’t know. I need the fog to lift! Do I have to wait until menopause is totally over for this to happen? I’m only 38, so that’s a long freakin wait!
Apart from the fog, there are the occasional showers. I have burst out crying a few times lately and it’s never at the right moment (of course not! why would it be?). I have triggers that set me off and once I start, there’s no stopping the water works.
I’ve never been opposed to a good cry. Actually I think it’s healthy to let it out. But not when I’m in the bosses office!!!
I just feel like the perimenopause is causing my sharpness to become dull. I can’t deal with this. Is this just a natural transition? If it is, I’m not down with it.
Who’s with me on this? Am I alone?